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My New Big Crush
07:03
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Jumping up and down on a borrowed bed
throwing our stuffies at each others faces
smoking a joint from both ends somehow
we make it work and laugh about it later on
playing those records we've never touched before
laughing at memes on our phones for hours
drawing crude pictures of each other's fursonas
find a good time to break out the hitachi
What the fuck, yr my new big crush now
oh my god you maybe like me back
we just stare at each other giggling
all day long
say yr cute
yr cute too
no yr cuter
sometimes we just cry for what seems like a year
other days we point at everything and then go "same"
most of the time i think that were just sleeping
we should maybe make food sometime today
all of the walls are covered in chalk scribbles
all of yr limbs are covered in my tattoos
i've been in these pajamas since last april
only other thing ive been in is you
What the fuck, yr my new big crush now
oh my god you maybe like me back
we just stare at each other giggling
all day long
say yr gay
yr gay too
no yr gayer
99 shades of red on my face
and your lipstick makes it 101
all except when its purple, green, blue or black
then i instead have 1,321
shades of red on my face
and maybe some pink as well
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2. |
Whisper My Head
05:09
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let me whisper my head
let me whisper the lovely dead gently to ya
so yr realizing all the pretty lies
and the presences that
don't believe that
are all around you
sometimes you wake up on a day where makeup
finds its way on your face
and im holding your hands
on this misty morning
sitting up by the window
so the snow and sunshine outside
illuminates around yr gorgeous self
i can be yr angular devil
or a deviation
from the angels that i used to inspire to be
i can be yr pillow
or i can be yr whole entire bed
let me be yr tears
let me be yr pjs
every break we give ourselves is justified
sometimes the best that we can do is stay safe tonight
there exists a singular choice that is completely inconsequental
yr friends won't leave you behind
and yr perfect first impressions become immortal
but don't try attempting to makeit no one
even knows what it really is yet
its been theorized that mr. rogers took that secret to his grave
i can't depart from everywhere
and never return
for then i'll end up returning somewhere
but the amount of things I'd like to never return to
are growing drastically with every breath i take
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3. |
Tangent
03:24
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i wish i could be loved for longer than a week
i wish i knew how to love you in the ways in which you seek
i wish you all could better understand the words i speak
and know that sometimes all i need is to be kissed and be made weak
i could listen to you talk
for three entire days
i'm sorry i don't talk to much
don't like it anyway
tried to take a proper vow of silence
annually since '98
i was only three years old and
i already didn't have much to say
if i recall i spoke entirely
in lines from movies
i'd even do the voices
to the best of my ability
extremely bright with some odd behavior
and no prodigal savior
im in hell sometime later
i never could quite understand why
they strapped me to that chair
or why i went to high up places
always losing myself in the air
the lab coat men that talked to me
one way window knocking
several different strands of colored wax string
i listened to them talk
for many countless weeks
i listened to her tell me i was normal
i dont even know what this has to do
with why i couldnt love you
i felt like it related
but it might be nothing
i struggle thinking of much to say
and if i recall i still speak from time to time
in lines from movies
and even do the voices
the words i want to say are there
extremely bright
with some odd behavior
and no prodigal savior
im in hell sometime later
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4. |
Rules in Excorcism
04:49
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In the attic
is a photo of you gathering dust
as many others accumulate
around it
these are brighter
technicolor
i may even be in them
i look like
ive never known you
that one impossible detail
a certain wrinkle on my head
the slight crease that curves itself
over one of my eyes
brings forth signs of the weight
that the photo still brings
and the healing from the sickness
that still simmers in the circumvent
keeping by the rules of exorcism
that I wrote for myself
specter jester magics have no audience here no more
cursed relics in an ancient journal
and you no doubt still hiding yourself in there
salt and slap the wound
cast out in the flume
rinse repeat in june
maybe sooner
i turned you face down
and left my lot
gave the space to those who needed sleep
and thankfully never saw you
sometimes i will return
and sleep up here myself
ill feel your silent scream
and remember
all you must be holding
all that may have spilt out
after i concurred what came before
had been enough
all that may still be waiting
the longer you lie flat
the longer i can too
the longer you stay silent
the louder you become
keeping by the rules of exorcism
that I wrote for myself
specter jester magics have no audience here no more
cursed relics in an ancient journal
and you no doubt still hiding yourself in there
salt and slap the wound
cast out in the flume
rinse repeat in june
maybe sooner
ill leave the roof hatch open some nights
and wake up soaked with rain
just to remind you of the dryness
you have come to realize
and that scream i hear from you
sounds a lot like my own
I'm keeping myself busy
and it looks like you also might
I'm healing from your sickness
what are you healing from, though?
keeping by the rules of exorcism
that I wrote for myself
specter jester magics have no audience here no more
cursed relics in an ancient journal
and you no doubt still hiding yourself in there
salt and slap the wound
cast out in the flume
rinse repeat in june
maybe sooner
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5. |
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i don't work quite well yet
don't make me be important yet
im trying to heal still
don't tell me that it's not my time to kill
remove me if you need to
everybody is
i've lost track of what i've missed
from the center of my head flows a wooden ocean
from the soles of my feet vomits plastic electricity
i have just one request
please take me anywhere but here
anywhere but here
i read yr manifesto in like 20 seconds
im just a jagged scribble so its nice to know yr words
give me time to blink my eyes enough and
please take me anywhere but here
anywhere but here
can't stop prancing let me touch down on the ground first
ill take it how you choose to deal it just like we rehearsed
leather rose petals flying off my bare ass
we bring the dungeon down with class
everybody says my eyes are pretty
at least ive got something
if people were what they see
i think some would be nothing
i can't recognize what i am please take me
anywhere but here
anywhere but here
could it just be my increased dose or maybe that its spring
all the music sounds better 'round this time, its a thing
i guess
i know i got a flirt somewhere
they should take me
anywhere but here, my dear
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6. |
Living Ghosts
06:25
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in the darkroom
hidden chairs
see through voices
eat the air
those casa suzanna energies
blanket me
feel the congregation of living ghosts
generations of chosen family
soulmate unions
paired once more
hod me up
above the floor
their time has come
once again to rise
masked in life
feel the congregation of living ghosts
generations of chosen family
all their worlds were
so unkind
all in different
ways than mine
sanction this place
as their newest
rainbow temple
hear the comfort whispered from living ghosts
wrought from torture, cleansed in love's wisdom
let us show you
let us speak
of the future our
souls do seek
take solace in
that we've yet to leave
watch us weave
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7. |
Feed The Demon Love
04:47
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some demons can be so cruel
how can i curse and be cursed by the demons too
they say the angels are bad
but they're the worst thing since angels we've ever had
they try really hard to be them
but their wings are too jagged
and most angels cant see them
if yr summon doesn't go well tonight
its not you its right now we cant help but hide
feed the demon love (every day)
not single not taken
i'm just mistaken
we talk near every night
i sit cross legged in yr pentagram with crimson light
i'm the only one working it seems
but i can still bring my partners to you in yr dreams
every thought you process with me
every ache that you cleanse in great excess in me
renews a bit of strength that i take
back and redistribute
help us feel brave for a day
feed the demon love (every day)
not single not taken
i'm just mistaken
some demons just don't care
they'd rather scream and tear off parts of all our hair
some things feel so untrue
its hard to live when you're cursed by demons like you
both born in shattered places
we show each other our battered faces
and if our worlds both ended soon
id be content if all that was left was this room
feed the demon love (every day)
not single not taken
i'm just mistaken
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8. |
Beautiful-Blue Kool Aid
09:10
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i feel like crying
i feel like burning every rich man down
i feel hopeful
now im hopeless
i feel joyful
then i remember im homeless
i feel like me
like too much of me
i keep on looking down my shirt to see if i can see the change occur
i feel like sex
now i dont feel like sex
now i feel like sex again
now i just want some salt
slide me another of that
of beautiful blue kool aid
certified home made
mode of survival
through this trade
theres a line forming outside
ppl coming from far and wide guess were a smash
house of the girly kool aid revolution
wild and unafraid
set up some poles for me on the right side of the bar
if i do good in a week
i could even have my own car
485 milligrams ground into a fine blue dust
mixed into a 12 ounce glass
it all goes straight to the legs and the waist
and the chest
it can feel the worst or the best
i waited too long to get this crest
slide me another of that
of beautiful blue kool aid
certified home made
mode of survival
through this trade
its another future
it all got privatized
they found a new solution
made them wild in their eyes
its illegal now
to take it straight
they got a bit creative
with some sources out of state
in the future
it got privatized
now there's mood swings in the houses of the suit n ties
getting softer
losing the chisel
theyre budding like roses
growing hair and tossing gristle
slide me another of that
of beautiful blue kool aid
certified home made
mode of survival
through this trade
so a toast to us
its all working out fine
the rivers run with robins eggs blue saccharin
now lets try to not tear each other apart
this time
(its an instrumental, with vocal coloring
last song on the album
its not a double this time)
slide me another of that
of beautiful blue kool aid
certified home made
mode of survival
through this trade
i feel like crying
i feel like burning every rich man down
i feel hopeful
now im hopeless
i feel joyful
then i remember im homeless
i feel like me
like too much of me
i keep on looking down my shirt to see if i can see the change occur
i feel like sex
now i dont feel like sex
now i feel like sex again
this is gonna be my new
daily routine im sure
slide me another of that
of beautiful blue kool aid
certified home made
mode of survival
through this trade
i feel in love
i feel so proud of you
i could be affectionate with you
fall apart with you
come and fall with me
fall with me
got me all tied up
on the outside
slide me another of that
of beautiful blue kool aid
certified home made
mode of survival
through this trade
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Dani Lee Pearce Denver, Colorado
nb trans songwriter orignally from the west coast
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