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For As Briefly As I Live

by Dani Lee Pearce

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mynameisblueskye Dani Lee Pearce's brand of pop isn't exactly informed by that of Top 40, but by that of classic, progressive pop musicians. Running the gamut between jazzy pop and DIY electronic pop fare, You almost get the idea that she is building the kind of album that she would have wanted to hear, down to the letter. Dani Lee goes from being a mere producer to a songwriter and a meticulous album creator in her own right.
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a-way haunting ballads over tonky pianos and snares that make my speakers beg for mercy tied with a bow of nice rhythms and gothic vibes, it's great Favorite track: For As Briefly As I Live.
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Kamani For As Briefly As I Live is a wonderful album. It has really good instrumentation, great singing, and lyrics that are meaningful. I don’t think I can really give it justice because I’m bad at the description, but there’s a link to a really good review in the description, so...
Also, a lot about the first song is relateable, so that’s very good.
Thank you for this wonderful album. Favorite track: What Do You Expect Me To Do.
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    *promo pictures
    *additional album artwork created by Dani
    *cover art for 7"

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    Digital download of For As Briefly As I Live included with each cassette purchase, as well as:

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    *Handwritten thank you note

    *a couple surprise stickers & pins from Grimalkin Records

    Bonus downloadable Items included with both digital & cassette purchase:
    *promo pictures
    *additional album artwork created by Dani
    *cover art for 7"

    Proceeds from cassettes go to Critical Resistance in Portland, OR. "Critical Resistance seeks to build an international movement to end the Prison Industrial Complex by challenging the belief that caging and controlling people makes us safe. We believe that basic necessities such as food, shelter, and freedom are what really make our communities secure. As such, our work is part of global struggles against inequality and powerlessness. The success of the movement requires that it reflect communities most affected by the PIC. Because we seek to abolish the PIC, we cannot support any work that extends its life or scope."
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    Digital download of the full length of For As Briefly As I Live included with each 7" purchase, as well as:

    *2 Dani Lee Pearce stickers

    *a Dani Lee Pearce pin

    *Handwritten thank you note

    *a couple surprise stickers & pins from Grimalkin Records

    Bonus downloadable Items included with both digital & cassette purchase:
    *promo pictures
    *additional album artwork created by Dani
    *cover art for 7"

    *Please note that 7" lathe cut only has 2 singles from the album: "I'm Gonna See My Abuser Again" and "Deep Red." The full length digital download of For As Briefly As I Live comes with purchase though.

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1.
What Do You Expect Me To Do: i cant spend eternity bored out of my being if the spirit gives the body life the spirits just as human in the absence of pain and mortal decay id still be hurtin just a wisp that washes long past due in some aging survivors window curtain my spirits tied herself to music all its being lives and breathes in notes of music every silence is just some bars of rest without a sound im salt and foam in a red red ocean lead bedded ocean what if there ain’t no vinyl records in the afterlife or no studios no Neumann 47s in the afterlife or no synthesizers electric guitars drums or bass in the afterlife what do you expect me to do when I do die what do you expect me to do when i do die if you think ill rest in peace you haven’t seen how restless ive been lately i never plan to stop i will accept no ending ill find new vessels i will find new types of instruments to play or ill bang on the walls of wherever my spirits taken to be expect me to pester you saying give me something to do give me something to do will anyone i know be there cause if im lonely youll be sorry crying black tears into a red red ocean lead bedded ocean what if there are no steinway grand pianos in the afterlife no harpsichords or bells or chimes in the afterlife no computers daws or cheap USB microphones in the afterlife what do you expect me to do when i do die what do you expect me to do when i do die what if there are no bands or festivals in the afterlife or any musical family art connections in the afterlife what if all thats there is a blinding sun eye thats shines all over me day and night what do you expect me to do when i do die what do you expect me to do when i do die if you think that you can do better than music in the afterlife there’s no way that you can say that without admitting that you are lying i cant stop and i wont stop you cant make me not even in the afterlife
2.
When All Things Are Well: when all things are well when my desert lies still with no turbulence when i can hear noises the quietness makes no verbal feed fair pace of breathing fair level of tender fair case of being alone in your weather fair chance im lost in a calypso record you play all night when all things are well all things are hell for whom that lives up there well for goodness sake what good layer of what bad cake do you think we’ve recovered from fair price for that many years of neglect white rice in honey for a new kind of project its nice your nice so nice you’ve got a voice for eons
3.
A Threat is a Promise: under shifting hues in daddy belt shoes in revolving frost she waits in grey holding a soaking knife and loaded gun listens for a whisper or a giveaway expression crouching in the rain arms tied behind the back am i still a traitor do we still die a threat is a promise committed to the first time, no hesitation come on james never knew you as the type to lie her vidal toying with his cryptics blood-stained letters written to his capote he plants his sweaty face directly on the page so she can see his eyes radiating his empty rage im ready to die set my tired spirit free take your best shot i will not let you miss me, no hesitation come on rat man hit me hit me are you hearing me dont you know how long ive waited to do my final rites in song in your vampires curse in my ailing health come on james take me with you in the jaws of your hell
4.
I'm Gonna See My Abuser Again: im gonna see my abuser again yeah im gonna see my abuser again i dont know why i want to see my abuser again but sometimes theyre good to me when no one else is really ever free for me treats me like a princess those times when she isn’t doing too bad they’re at every party im invited to turn your back she still keeps an eye on you my friends didnt get the memo i sent they were at the door everywhere i went fake a smile til i make it out don’t relive and don’t recount just slide into your comfort restaurant look out the window for forever if you want i don’t wanna drink i never drink but now that I think on it do i wanna drink yes i wanna drink yes ill have a drink it can’t possibly be as bad as them i think
5.
Ready Yr Not 06:01
Ready Yr Not: are you ready for me can you look me in the mirror and say thats who i wanna be thats who you know you are you ready for me to love and respect me to honor me and sanction me with your benefit of doubt you see i might be sweating a little blood you see i might be bleeding a little mud you see that i seem stubborn maybe a little pissed cause im the only one who isn’t done reminding what you missed every now and then i turn my head to you asking are you ready now no youre not you never will (dont give a fuck at all) we’re all waiting here for you to put on your boots and catch up we’re all waiting at the finish line the race is over and we’ve all gone home we know you just won’t be ready for a while why arent you ready yet its the 21st century should’ve been ready in the eighties when it could’ve really counted why do i act surprised when folks just grow themselves more feet to drag or axes to just lop them at the ankles yet how am i so hopeful i guess im just desperate and have been for a really long time i just keep it secret you see that i seem stubborn maybe a little pissed cause im the only one who isn’t done reminding what you missed i know yr ready for me i know you can look me in the mirror and say thats who i wanna be thats who you know you are you ready for me do you got a friend to help you choose a wardrobe for the real you ready to be scared every day are you ready for truth to hit you are you ready for making friends to be much harder than it used to let’s be afraid together but let’s not just submit nor surrender lets not harden the heart but the skeleton when all your favorite stans are gone who will you have to lean your speaker on if were not here
6.
For As Briefly As I Live: for as briefly as i live stubborn servant to perfection which i just cant give for as minutely as i stand a blanket thoughtlessly thrown from yr slithering hand i grow so pale standing one inch high looking for pratchetts death to sever what ties me down yr black eyed dog is now at my door we thought he had enough (after 44 years) but i guess he still wants even more for as briefly as i live a big step on a broken staircase is all fate can give for as minutely as i stand a pair of red eyes in a uniform acting on his own command i waste so much to just return i should have known the earth was no longer young and unlearned the ground itself attempts to flee they wont even let me into the afterlife that holds everybody just like me for as briefly as i walk upon the mother stomach i will fancy what we can’t see even with what’s comin to expound a flailing spirit sweating multicolor paint i will try to be okay but god forbid im made a saint i wont make as big a footprint as some of my friends make but i will leave them still uncovered with what contents in my wake with every rope within my voice and every second of this prayer all the swiftness to whoever is my chosen pansy slayer and should i die by sword or bullet or predatory cancer vessell onward to the devil’s mess hall unless the entree look don’t fit i dream so many days of being blessed with all your strength a deity’s mangled anger but im not so much your divine stranger when all your favorite stans are gone who will you have to lean your speaker onto if were not here
7.
Two Little Pansies: ive kissed the groom or what would be the equivalent standing in their place of someone else’s wedding ive cleared a room one at a time just to code in all my fancies and ive seen that room from the awkward view of the singer of their house band ive skipped a pebble kick down a brooklyn stream til i was sick i keep burying acorns asking for something of me to be seen as labor i only have so much skin to tattoo every note ive written were gonna get old no matter what no matter what no matter what two little pansies in twenty twisted blankets breathing until we see the glow from the lightbulb moving two little pansies in hundreds of little colors in the dirt that we reign higher than until we retire back again two little pansies in a bushfield full of thorns watching prince phillip cut his way through barely missing us two little pansies here because we want to thats where we got planted thats where we’ll greet you every spring ive drunk a lake and made a house from all the fish there and you nursed me in my long hangover you always see my days from the most uncanny gaze like youre a fly with a DSLR trying to remain level i could slip and fall on your outside wisdom into the grass you lay across the beach that represents me im just burning for your cinnamon windblown flowing scarves around a winter swing in entertainment of a flock of pigeons who try and fail to leave us and now were here and staring waiting til we fall asleep were gonna get old no matter what no matter what no matter what
8.
Undoctored/Spirit Wife: i hope you know you are as beautiful as you are serene so at one with nature and the quietness of the world a lot of human things we take for granted have passed you by and youve struggled sometimes you have such deep connections with the green earth that you capture in pictures where no humans ever were in sight you have a gentleness far surpassing anyone everything you do you do with quiet faded wisps of movement never could be forceful never could be loud or terrifying so anomalous youre so anomalous i mean this in the very best way an expression of such stunning strength you’ve kept so well preserved with the patience and resilience of an old sequoia i mean this in the very best way we share a close knit guardedness of our infant spirit hearts weve suffered decay but weve held defenses strong and we still can find the joys offered absent of our influence like a break in the overcast with pink skies and sun setting flocks of flying birds in frosty winter air a light near a park bench in a foggy evening the way untainted nature doesn’t give a fuck at all the green that still grows on the mayors castle and the places of the world that weve never seen outside of the photos we see undoctored were undoctored let us remain as we be undoctored if looks can kill yours bring me to life dancing spinning glowing spirit wife
9.
Deep Red 03:09 video
Deep Red: i crush too much and i dont talk enough and ive got a lot to say but do u got a lot to hear from me specifically are you just better at concealing yr feelings than me cause im not good at all im obviously deep red the way you talk and the way u do that pisces thing that virgo thing i dunno what it is about you except the armada country creamer in your voice im so scared to tell you the things that i believe of you here i never know how content you are to disappear the way you talk and the way u do that libra thing that cancer thing it devastates me falling bowling pins in my heart cavity i crush too much and i dont talk enough and ive got a lot to say but do u got a lot to hear from me specifically are you just better at concealing yr feelings than me cause im not good at all im obviously deep red the things that you find soft the way that you remain so free so representative of the futures i cant help to see you make me want to travel to wherever you want to wander to my roots have always been above the ground its hard to keep them down i crush too much and i dont talk enough and ive got a lot to say but do u got a lot to hear from me specifically are you just better at concealing yr feelings than me cause im not good at all im obviously deep red well your souls as old as mine yet your just as young as me were just a couple pansy troubadours stuck on the cis side of most things cheating the cheater bamboozelin the joy depleter by depleting his own reckless joy joy joy joy
10.
My 04:55
My: hello my darling most precious of the sages most wisest of the woodlings at your table our home does grow so dark whenever your eyes are shut but it is kept warm in blanket swarms of you hello my cherry my twinkle in the icing in your pajama shirt and flower pants most things bear their cruelty when youre not in the room with me surely there ought to be much more of you amongst us hello my fairy i promise you your fallacies are pebbles to my towers they have the same design as yours its like the architects have the same things they project in the way they cut the stone and lay cement hello my angel my pansy icarus who made it all on strength and spunk alone you have such great full-hearted things that magnetize to you and i was one and this polarity can never change a bone
11.
Run Fly 06:14
Run/Fly: my thoughts do run like a wild horse in that they arent things that we see today but in every horse that we encounter we all can see and feel their brayin in their spirit running spirit in their spirit racing in a frippery of pace running free from the new form of restless sea for yonder hills of vivid green comraderie with the only few humans around all so bright like a fever dream yet its alright like a peaceful scream peaceful scream peaceful scream in the way of a captured prey from whom the predator consumes the disease but i love too much i love too much i love too much to go running with em yet i love too much i love too much i love too much to go running with em yet my feet do keep themselves so planted for out of sight my neighbors remain chained on i still grow leaves from all my branches and birds still build their nests in my hands in my hands in my heads a home from which has been flown the pieces of vices of family familiar you can see im hollowed out right here thats where youve burrowed for the winter for your warmth i bloom so brightly still theyll never fell me from this hill from this hill on this hill im immortalized in a painting by a woman who felt so still the same air but i love too much i love too much i love too much to go flying without you i love too much i love too much i love too much to go flying without you
12.
I Continue Living: I continue living with you next to me I continue living in close proximity I continue living in ways that are true I continue living never forgetting you

about

Dani's new album, For As Briefly As I Live brings us her unique weird brand of pop piano and quirky ballads: "Commitment has the ability to intertwine such mutually opposite but attracted things like love and death in ways often unexplained or unexplored. The two are either separate or complimentary, never in between. This album is a collection of songs that explores this from the perspective of a frequently shy, nervous, and lonely trans woman; Someone in a period of processing the implications of her own mortality in an unstable time, while at the same time, being absolutely smitten with a devotion that's made for a timely antidote which makes living worth its rough and complicated while."

Proceeds from cassettes go to Critical Resistance in Portland, OR. "Critical Resistance seeks to build an international movement to end the Prison Industrial Complex by challenging the belief that caging and controlling people makes us safe. We believe that basic necessities such as food, shelter, and freedom are what really make our communities secure. As such, our work is part of global struggles against inequality and powerlessness. The success of the movement requires that it reflect communities most affected by the PIC. Because we seek to abolish the PIC, we cannot support any work that extends its life or scope."
criticalresistance.org

Artist receives 75% of all proceeds of digital only sales. The remaining 25% supports Grimalkin's label and mutual aid fund and helps us towards sustaining our work.

Proceeds from lathe cuts go to our artist and mutual aid label fund.

credits

released February 14, 2020

All Songs written, composed, recorded and with vocals by Dani Lee Pearce.
All album and merch artwork and photos by Dani Lee Pearce.
Featuring Maddie Tourmaline on accompanying vocals(Track 2 and 4)

Composed and recorded 17 March - 29 June 2019, August 2019 in
Portland, OR(Track 2-3, 7-11)
Seattle, WA (Track 1)
and Milwaukee, WI(Track 4-6, 12)

Many thank yous to:

Maddie for being an absolute dear and amazing
friend/collaborator/girlfriend while we were that for each other,
for being such a powerful songwriting inspiration during this
period of time and for being there and being so radiant, positive
and encouraging while I finished this album at your house in Milwaukee.

GG/Gloria Lustre (irkallalustre.bandcamp.com) for
always providing me the intricate feedback for my songs and music
videos that I always seek from the people I show my work to, for
being a tremendous positive emotional and psychological anchor in
my life, and an always amazing and magical partner. You are so so
essential to me and one of my greatest sources of peace and
happiness right now.

Grimalkin for being the first label I've submitted to who's
actually seen value in my work and wanted to release me. It may
not seem like much but it feels like a huge next step for me
and my music. I'm so honored to be released alongside all the
other artists in your catalogue!

My small cadre of fans who post about me on places like reddit
and RYM in attempts to spread the word about my music and
support me on twitter and patreon. You all are so good and
have definitely helped me keep going through rough patches.

Maddie
pagefortysix.bandcamp.com
soundcloud.com/page-fortysix

Dani
danileepearce.bandcamp.com
www.patreon.com/danileepearce
soundcloud.com/dani-lee-pearce

Huge thanks to Houdini Mansions for premiering this album for us: houdinimansions.com/features/2020/2/12/album-premiere-dani-lee-pearce-for-as-briefly-as-i-live

Huge thanks to Secret Wine Press for this lovely review: secretwinepress.com/album-review-dani-lee-pearce/

Huge thanks for another extremely thoughtful review of her album from Yeah I Know It Sucks: yeahiknowitsucks.wordpress.com/2020/03/12/dani-lee-pearce-for-as-briefly-as-i-live/

Huge thanks to Decaycast for covering Dani's 3 video/singles: decaycast.wordpress.com/2020/03/16/decaycast-news-experimental-pop-artist-dani-lee-pearce-shares-her-video-triptych-single-watch-now/

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