wrote this about an artist i look up to a lot and unintentionally ended up exploring parasociality a bit lol, written 2019
lyrics
you seem so cool
but im very small
i watch you do ur thing over my people and your own
once i tried to say hi
but i was really embarrassing
and i havent tried since
i may just be scary and weird to you
im really tall and i think
my voice is lower than all your friends
im kind of a gremlin
and i hope one day you talk to me cause im way too scared to try talking to you again
i got an inkling that
your spiritual sense may be
very close to mine
the way you talk of demons and the basement shows that they always throw
how youve wrestled your own shadow
and those of people even taller than you
the frequent train rides into black holes and out again
in again
out again
im slimy and gruff
in the unattractive way
kind of a gremlin
the kind that folks wish wasn’t gay
im three wheels from a big car wreck
where the fourth was stolen by some kid
really just kind of a gremlin
but i still think your really cool and kinda really cute but really who doesn’t think that
time to have an original thought
time to be chill again cause i forgot
im kind of a gremlin and a big heckin jerk
how does this making friends thing work
you seem so cool
but i gotta play it cool
ill let you come to me when you want to
i got to be mindful
got to be patient
the time will come if the time is meant to come
a closeout thought
tried to enter my head
but it fumbled and flustered
to my abstraction seabed
guess its my secret
that ill always keep
in a brain fog making me
fall forwards back to sleep
credits
from Unfair Harmonies,
released July 9, 2021
written June 24, 2019
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